RSA (Continuation of more whining)

I'm like a train. a train that whines all the time... a series of whining and complaining. That makes me feel better??? TO a certain extent yes. Whole night i have been doing very little programming.
I can say very much is not my own programming and functions from elsewhere.
I cant compile so i duno whether it will work or not. Very sad about it
I am the burden of the whole group. They all can do things so fast. get good grades while i am just the slow lazy me.
Reality sux. Thats probably why some ppl have split personality or have their "Dream world".
Is there one for me as well ?? As we grow older, we no longer have dreams and fantasy. No big hope and dreams about what we can achieve in life. In return, we think about how to make more money an survive in this cruel world. Dont even think about what you want to be or do. Unless u started from young or the first step like in poly or something and progress from there.
I am lost. i dont know what is my next step. My program cant run cos it cant compile. I dont know how to solve that bug. OMG !!!
I'm doomed. Tomorrow perhaps there is another meeting for group. and i think i cant complete what i am suppose to have done.
I promised JR that i will finish my RSA by thursday and its wednesday right now. 3.33pm.
I have 22 hours more i think ?? 22-10 hrs = 12 hrs to work on my RSA.
Not going anywhere also. Staying home to get fat.
My tummy is going to explode.. LOL. Months and years of fats.. y cant i slim down..
Do i have to go for extreme measures to slim down ?? i dont wana be fat and short. and ugly.

Acne scarred face, short, curly hair, fat, stupid, blur, lazy <<< I DONT WANA BE ASSOCIATED with those terms. I want to be different.

Seeing Nigel's blog, he is still lost. Lost his direction for love and searching for that particular girl. Once i was like that too.. Heartbroken, miss her alot, going mad, thinking too much. Thats love.
Cant really advise him but just hope he pull through soon enough. Good luck !