Too Slack

I have been slacking too much...
Today i almost did nothing... Feel like a worthless person. Woke up at 1(cos i sleep at 6). tried to do abit of my project but for no reason, just cant focus and end up doing nothing.
Been watching shows after shows i dl.
UNTIL.... my mom ask me to pick up some rambutans from my aunt downstairs in 5 mins.
I seriously thought that was just a rough timing and my aunt will call when she comes..
So i waited.. in front of the com.. until the call comes...
My mom got so angry at me she started scolding me .. saying i didnt wait downstairs...
But WTH, whats the point of communication when we dont use it. Why wait downstairs when a phone call is so easy.
Her point was that i took my own sweet time and said " how are you going to work next time like ths? this is the 2nd time u did that". that sounds so offensive and i dont see why we are argueing over such mundane issue. Its just stupid and doesnt prove any point.
But reflecting on myself, i do admit that i am too much of a slacker after army...
Looks like army taught me a lot. including mindset about lookin at everything.

I know i must buck up ... even my project i am struggling and all. but where is the determination and perservance. I'm LOST.

Tomorrow we meeting supervisor already and i am not exactly done with my part of the project.. its just simple caesar cipher and its so complicated. Though i learnt java all 3 years in poly. I dont really understand fully and didnt go into depth about it. I am just a noob whom want to escape from programming. But fate brings me back to it everytime i want to escape.

I wonder, am i useless? what does my existence mean to this world? Am I going to achieve something ? or live a better life than i wanted ? what am i going to do after graduation.
Uni is the point where i drop out of school. To go for masters or higher just isnt me. I dont have that resolve like i used to have. I just want to not think. I'm naive and simple person.
The world complicates me.